Sunday, August 22, 2010

sunsets and such...











Life is like a sunset. To me sunsets are like a perscription for therapy, written by God. You have this amazing canvas, and a never ending water line, and the most amazing sounds of waves hitting the shoreline, the sound of seagulls and a gental wind against your face. You look out at this big beautiful sky full of shades of orange, gold, yellow, blue, turquoise, gold and you realize there is something so much bigger than yourself and your problems. If you have had the opportunity to live on the west coast of Florida, you have grown to know that some of the best sunsets come after a storm. The clouds drop down, the colors unite and melt into something much deeper, much more colorful, more electric than you can ever imagine. You sit there and continue to look out in awe of what is happening right before your eyes. I am reminded that this is the way life works as well. God gives us everything, he also presents us with storms, and what I am learning is that the storm is there so you can learn to get through it. I thought it was one big beautiful life, never really had to grow up. Never been presented a challenge. sure their have been life changes, and challenges, but not on such a personal level. I have gone through the storm, been knocked down, scared, literally hanging on for my life, but then in moves a sky, a sunset like this night, and I see a deeper "me" a more beautiful than I could imagine "me" I am getting to know a more mature Donna, learning to live with my heart a lttle more gaurded, learning that I can only live in today, the future scares me, but today is good, and at the end of this day, there will be another sunset. I don't know if it will be a magnificent, or full of electric colors, but there is one guarantee, the sun will set, the night will come and tomorrow is a new day. I must say a quite exciting day... my baby boy starts middle school, he is super excited and full of confidence. Abby starts 4th grade and Olivia starts 2nd grade and they both have had their outfits laid out for a week... right down to their shoes. There is a buzz of excitement around our home and I like them am anxious about the next chapter. I look forward to blank pages, and the fact that I get to write my chapter. I am challenged to be a better mama to my babies, along with a fresh start on homework schedules, and after school activities, and working more, I look forward to the person I am growing into, the friends that have literally held me together. They have let me borrow their boxing gloves, mouth guards, hell... even brass knuckles. They have sent me text that say things as simple as "i love you" to funny hysterical jokes, that I needed in the middle of a good cry, that make me bust out laughing. I am going to face more challenges, more storms, but I look forward to therapy on the beach and many ore of the amazing sunsets...